Monday, January 25, 2016

I Just Don't Know

In this season of so many big life changes, I have been challenged by the fact that there are few answers to the plethora of questions, and I find myself often saying "I just don't know."

When do you think your baby is going to arrive?....I just don't know.
     (Due February 17th but has shown signs of coming early)

When do you think you will be moving out of your house in Spokane?....I just don't know.
     (Around the end of February but now that too might be up in the air because of visa issues)

When do you think you will be finally moving to Indonesia?...I just don't know.
     (Depends on our visas.  We turned in the paper work 5 months ago and have heard nothing since.)

What will life look like for you in Indonesia?...I just don't know.
    (Won't know until I get there.)

As I stop and ponder the fact that I truly have no control over some of life's circumstances, it stretches my "planning" personality and reminds me that I need to not be relying on myself but on the Lord. After all, HE is the one who knows and the one who does have perfect control of everything in my life.

Whether life seems stable or like a whirlwind, we can trust the God who holds it in His strong, loving, capable hands.  Oh how I need to be reminded of that often!  I need to surrender my plans to Him daily in order that His perfect plan may be accomplished.